I was in class, as usual trying to sleep, but something did turned my mind came outta the class and wrote my mind.

LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!what is love ???????? as a matter of fact I dunno the meaning?.. I mean its vague, any one can define it in their own way. Its like liquid, which takes the shape of the container. So here container is the person who defines it. It is the best definition I can put. No one really knows what love is and what it is all about. Every one feels it, every one talks bout it and blah blah blah blah???????.. but do the people really understand the meaning ??????????????? I dunno. There are lotza stories bout love, so called love sotries like Romeo and Juliet, Heer and Rajha. Ram and Sita, Radha and Krishna and yada yada yada yada yada??????. I can go on. But all of them has a similarity, none of them lived happily ever after or did they ???????? I don?t think so. Love hurts, its pain in back, it keeps on hurting and still u want it, but Y ?
Someone has said, dunno who ?????? but said, love is to give not to take, Love is to lose, not to win. Is it true ??????????might be, all the storied above suggests that this statement is true. Y am I explaining all these????????????? Khai ? love is illusion, confusion, delusion, fallacy and wat not ? it is more vague and vast than universe. *study universe and study love* I got the choice, I choose I study universe, it is easier to study in comparision. Mahadev (god of all gods) had carried the dead body of his wife all around the world for years (this is just a belief, but might be true as well), that is love. And after sometime, married different girl, that was also love. Which one was true ??????? Both !!!!!!!! Well I was in love some time ago. I would say long time ago. I still dunno, was that a true love, or infatuation or sexual attraction or physical attraction or ?????
How do people know bout true love ?????????????? I sacrificed a lot for a girl and what did I get ????? nothing. A rejection after some time. People say there shouldn?t be any expectation in love, ok, great, but is it true in real life ?????? Hell noooooo People are very selfish, every one is selfish.

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I wold like to set what I have written as a background of the story. But i need your comment and suggestions. Open to comment and debate.

harkeDai

anywayz, dont get scared broda, ma chu ne. if u need some motivation or anything...just ask me. i hav 110 ways to propose. but, i never tried>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Bro, u never tried and u r asking me to try it, Oh man, pahila aafu try gara, ani see the result and after that I might think bout doing that ni.

aaba ek chin ma class suru huncha. wakka lagcha.....kasto nindra nindra lage ra ko thyio....tesai ley...sajha ma aaye ko.
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Good job broda. Class bhaneko nai sutna ko laagi ho. Jo class ma sutcha tesle unnati garcha. Ma pani class ma sutna nai jaane ho, padhera pani koi thulo bhako cha ra, ki kaso ?

So, spring is the best time to love.>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Very true, tehi bhayera ta spring ma nai garna laako ni. Summer aaunu bhanda agadi nai.
summer alik suru bhai sakya chaina ni.


daju, baal matlab. i can understand how u felt, i mean u might be thinking that if u propose bhauju then she might reject u.>>>>>>>>>>>
Thank god, some one understands me, tara wrong person kya. hahahahahaha, lol bro nahasau na. Timro inspiration le, ma propose garchu, tara aaja ta fursad chaina, monday exam cha kyara, weekend ma heram k huncha. Milyo bhane garula ni propose pani.

fear of being rejected is one thing.....but still sometimes it's good to know the answer rather than try and try and try.....for nothing and feel bad about it at the end. now if you're not gonna complain about it at the end then it's a different story.

LOVe..............................like it says......mutu ko chot, dimag ko booj ani sochai ko dosh, hamra baje le bhante sawan ma aakha futeko goru lai sadai hariyali.........maya, causing a damage of brain cells making lovers blind blaming love is blind. Aba kasari love abstract noun as english pundit has said could be blind......................dont make sense to me.., Love is like scramble egg in morning mixed with milk, salt and pepper. Just gives your stomach hold on till u have proper lunch. Once the lunch has been obtained then why shuld u care about breaki.............this is love. LOve is illusion which dont want to be explored..........if u explore it and flash the secret then u dont have right to live in this planet called earth. May be mars was once populated and they realised the meaning of love by every inch and in out. Today, there is no population in mars coz they got it all................as said by ajambari baba, done PHD in philoshopy. He has long beard and chilam in hand. He says he is from good family and understood meaning of life to be jogi............this is love for what is he doing? atleast he has his destiny and know what he want out of life? tha is love for life.......................which u take once.
there is a love of multicelluar organism like human evolving with single cell.............it is a proud and selfish love......
Love kissing one in public, holding hand and then smile looking at each other eye............Can it be love? what is infatuation? blah blaha blah......om karam vindu sayuktam nityam dhyam tiyo geena, kaam ma dam mocha dam chaiba , om karaye namo namo............Yani ke.........(OM YESTO ANTIM VINDU HO JASMA SAMPURNA 5 ELEMENTS AAYERA TUNGINCHA, JAS KO PACHADI ARU KUNAI AAKAR CHAINA......JASLAI SADAIBA BUJNE PRAYAS LE MATRA PANI MAANISH KO JINDGAI KAAM, KRODH RA MOHA BATA BANCHIT HUNCHA, HEY OM KAAR JO AFAI MAA NIRAKAR CHA.......TES KAAR KO JAYA JAYA)...........THIS IS love coz u r not one of the guys who is into hydrophonix nor attent botanical class( gaza course) everyday in circket ko field................Love is to chill...........love is to dance on pill then saying dyamm who is this gal sleeping next to me..........End it is not love which is chill pill............love is kill bill...........reveange........not that as well..........love is library with full of stories which make u cry and which make u laugh.............no either......yes as well..........then what is love? is it the wave from ocen hiting the shore like crazy barbarians to knock the wall of fort...........
Whatever it is let it be? it is beyond and impossible for us to know what it is?
love is like my language ........................some ppl hate it, some find it weird, some find it pot head, some find it philoshopy, some found it lack of vocabulary and good english.................but i dont care like.......love dont care......this is what it is complicated and sophisticated......thats why i love love

Fear of being rejected is one thing.....but still sometimes it's good to know the answer rather than try and try and try.....for nothing and feel bad about it at the end.>>>>
yup it is good to know the answer, but the fear always remains, what would u do, if she rejects. I think, human beings are always afraid of rejection and when it comes to girls then enxiety goes high. Its better to be frens than to be rejected, at least u get somethin ni, its better than loosing a fren. You will get the answer but if its no, u will loose her, completely.
(it is just a feeling that people might have)

MM broda, thanx for your valuable suggestion bout love. Your experience and philosophy definately counts here buddy.

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That went on for a quite a time. Every day, see her, say hi and bye with a big smile. That?s not what exactly looking for, but something is better than nothing. Well, at least I can see her smile and hear her voice. After all, teenages are like that, u dun think what u r doing and don wanna think bout the result. I dunno wat it is that I wanted. She was my girl next door, and it is difficult for me to talk with her. I dunno, is that wat happens with every one?????????????? Or is that only me, who has to face that difficulty. Why was I so nervous in front of her ???????????? every day I would say to myself, I would tell today, that I love her, but every day, the words would stuck on my throat. I could not speak a word in front of her. I would just watch her, a little smile and that?s it.

Days were passing in this way, I passed class 9 and its now the time to hit the nail, no matter what I do with my school and with my classes, I cannot screw up my SLC. It is the iron gate in our education system, education system only???????? Hell no, it is same with our society. Our society won?t accept u, if u fail SLC. That?s an embarrassment for every one. Every one has expectation from me. Teachers, parents, friends not to mention other relatives, they are the watchdogs. They know ur result before u know it. They know ur SLC symbol number, they seriously do. I dunno Y they are so much concerned about others but they are. It was now time for me to forget bout every thing and prepare for the ?grand final.? It was a pain in back for me. Well I believe it is for every one if u attend total of 90 days of class in ur 9th grade. And I was also not among the sharp knife in the drawer?????. I would say, blunt and rusted knife. I completely ruined my 9th grade, I always had a sword hanging on my head, when it comes to my studies. I still dunno how I passed class 9. I did, that was a surprise for me and still is. The situation was, I had to start every thing from scratch now, with my studies. Every day I thought, I have to do better this year. Better ?????????????? only better is not enough, I have to do lot better, better than the best just to pass SLC. Scary thought for me. I have to take more tuition, have to attend class every day, have to work three times more than I used to. No problem, I can do that???.its not a big deal. But the biggest problem is, I have to miss my girl next door, and miss her for a long time at least I cannot see her smile before my finals are over. I don?t have no choice than to miss her. I will miss her, for a long time.

I think girls (for most girls ..just to be on the safe side) would have no problem remaining friends even after being asked to go out on the date or something like that and have rejected the person. It's a problem of a guy (most of the time) who doesn't want to remain friends. Speaking from what i have seen and from experience, most of the time they have remained friends even after being rejected.
Unless of course..u don't know the person at all and you ask them to marry you or something...then maybe there is a chance that you might scare away the person completely...

May be mars was once populated and they realised the meaning of love by every inch and in out. Today, there is no population in mars coz they got it all................
.............so the moral of this story is ....leave love alone !!!!
enjoy both the bitter and sweet part of love and stop analyzing....if u want to live :-D

I did propose a girl and she was speechless. she didn't say "yes" or "no". How should I take that, AeutiKT?
Please suggest me.

-u_day

did propose a girl and she was speechless. she didn't say "yes" or "no". How should I take that, AeutiKT?
Please suggest me.>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
bro lai Aeutikt le ta suggestion diyena, sanskrit ma yeuta ukhaan cha kyaara.
"MAUNA SAMMATI LAKCHYANAM"

I hope u understand what i am saying here.

oii..didn't know someone asked me a question. Simple answer to that, is take it as a no...she probably has her hearts set on someone else. But then it also depends on her reaction. I mean ... she can be speechless in so many ways...

L= Lake of Sorrows
O= Oceans of Tears
V= Valley of Death
E= End of Life
That's what I'd say LOVE is, Harke Dai...
Cheerio

GO ON GUYS!!
THATS THE SPIRIT:)

harkeydai enjoyin hmm go on ....

AeutiKT and harkeDai:
I have similar problem too. But she is not speeachless. She just keeps on saying "life is uncertain we don't know what will happen". It is damn hard to believe that she is saying "no". It is also hard to believe that she means "yes". But, we have not stopped taling each other. We frequently talks and I frequently ask the same question and get the same response. How should I take this? Help me gals. I will invite you all in my marriage ............

hancyguy, i am not a gal, but here are my thoughts anyway. The girl thinks that you are OK, but is not sure if you are the one. you might be her backup, which is why she does not reject you outright. so she is stalling, hoping for something better. if nothing better comes along, she knows that she has a fall back option.

there are plenty of fish in the sea. i say you should start looking for other candidates. if none of you succeeds, you still have each other as backup. but this is not the ideal situation because the girl does not seem to be completely in love with you....but hey, few marriages are based on everlasting true love.

i may be wrong here. there is a possibility that she does think that you are the one, but is not ready to commit to marriage yet. you need to confront her face to face and figure out the truth...i hope i am wrong about the stalling, in which case i will email you my address for the wedding invitation...

i totally agree with zalim..a friend is not necessarily love..love not necessarily the hubbyy..

my philosophies for marriage is knowingly for sure that he;s gonna be my partner rest ofmy life...a partnership to the minute details like understanding when to make the coffe and when to give space....i hope that i make the right decision when marrying..marriage therefore is a permanent varaible..i hate people marrying ending in divorces..specially when kids are involved..so take as much time before decide..

love is a result of a playful heart...sometimes i have bf just cuz the y are so nice that i casn't say no..sometimes i just need someone to be around with...sometimes i need a date so badly to attend that function..sometimes its just curioussity what cud happen if i went out with this person..no past no future..usually it ends in short span of time..and when the notion of love wanes out we become normal people..we're mostly friendly but with lovers, hey you don't wanna go back the same trail..unless you seriously want him back..love is a random variable

Frens..hey you either get along with a person the first time or you don't, once you do there's no looking back...bad times good times..a friend is a friend is a friend...you might kiss a friend and you might kill him too..but he's a friend..girls and guys should be friends..for reasons beyond what i can grasp-from helping to grooming, shopping, datin g, finances, the interiors, barbeque dinners, knwing the toolkit in the car, fighting against other guys, places to go..i guess friends are eternal and not variables...

yet i wudn't date a fren because he knows too much..too boring...and i won't marry my date..unless.im pretty sure i can still keep the charms even after i marry

Yo MAYA bhanne chij yestai ho ..........

Hancyguy, want to add on what Zalim Singh said. Yeh, thats very much true. May be not all but many gals just can't say yes or no outright in the illusion that they might get a better man. The more you insist, the more stubborn they become. So, the best thing is once you express her about your intention, wait a few time for her reply. If you don't get a yes soon, just put your mind away from her. Otherwise, it affects your life.

I had this gal years back, liked her, loved her and told everything I wanted to tell her. She just kept silent neither yes nor a no. I wanted a firm reply but she would never give me her words. Damn, her love affected everything of mine but I wouldn't get any clue.I was dissappointed. ---------- Now years passed by, recently I got her mail at my office's mailbox, she saying that she still remembers me and my words. What a tragedy? I can't trust her now. Coz she couldn't trust me when I trusted her. Does love have anything to do with the consequences of life? Love with reservations can't be a love I decided this and said no to her latest offer with a heavy heart.

all of the above are true...but there are cases where zalim mentioned where it's just a commitment issue. Or maybe the person could be waiting for some stability in that person's own life before making a big decision.

zalimSingh, Hushpuppy, Amazing, newuser, AeutiKT
thanks for different perspectives. I am thining not to hurt myself and my objective for being here in the US on this matter. Let's time decide this matter. "Times and tide wait for no man".

yes yes...keep your priorities straigh hancyguy

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