when you look at yourself whose are the eyes you look at yourself with? as this things is going over my head i always think i m looking myself with other's eyes.
i feel complete when they say i am. i feel berated when the say i m useless. is this fair how can it be. i have heard it sometimes ' don't let other make you feel you are inferior' why am i letting this happen all the time.
it is so meaning less
success and failure are so futile as words. i have quoted somewhere i don't believe in words. they are so misleading, i m not sure when i will be able to say my life is a super success or die without saying once.
seriously i m not sure what i want from my life and i still don't understand what is life at all.
i m stupid i m dumb i am sure, yet it is so vague. what are we here for what are we looking for bunch of fool like us. bunch of misleaded wanderers, every wall i hit ceases to nothingness or is it the nothingness i m looking for? if it is the nothingness then why all the trouble why all this race. look what have we turned our life into a meaning less race where everyone loses.
when u move fast u miss the glory of reaching there. if winning is all you got u in ur head then life is a misery a total fiasco for you.
let the dance be slow the music won't last don't dance too fast.
one fool lectures another fool and to make him a new kind of fool. it is like a logic question where every logic is wrong yet all think they got it right and impose the so call rightness to other fool. they can bear you to b fool but not a different kind of fool but the fool that is like them. matching the wavelength of foolishness, and we find glory in that. so pathetic, yet an illusion, it is the mirage we are living with, so virtual. we began associating so much with the mirage that we lost the true color. believe me know one knows what the true color is like.
faking the glory, faking the superiroty, yet a abyss inside, every fool knows that, the presence of the abyss yet console his abyss with the foolishness.
look how great is the dumness, no one feels dumbness any more yet another socrates dies unnoticed, a non entity in the domain of fools. four words only he liked to say " we all are fools"

The world does not run by thought, nor by imagination, but by "OPINION".

Sometimes we just trap under the virtual mirage of majority. Life is not the matter of Black and White: There is also a Gray Part too.

I like your writing. By the way, did you try to look yourself on the mirror with your own eyes to your own eyes???

Hang on there....................................

Bodmas ji:

W.E.B. Dubois eloquently called it the "veil theory". It's when you look into the onlookers' eyes and attitude (toward you)to gauge your worth.

Like Virtual Reality said, look inward for your selfworth not outward.

Bodmas,
you surely made me think( kwim)

Sits Dijju,
howdy? long time...

sitara
when you look at yourself with your own eyes what do you see?

"Sitara
when you look at yourself with your own eyes what do you see?" Bodmas

What do I see? :) Your question brought a smile to my face!

Ok, here goes: I see a product of my experiences and an acknowledgement of my life choices! Neither, good nor bad!

do you know why you are here. what your life should be like what ur priorities are?
seriously i can't see anything myself.
bodmas

Bodmas;
I don't have all the answers to my life, but I am open to learning. And here is my Mantra:

This is a Reiki Mantra:
All I need to know will be revealed to me, in its own time and space.
All that I need will come to me, in its own time and space.
All that is mine will not be taken away from me, and if it is, it never was mine!
So, trust in the natural process of life and live the best that you can. It's enough!

Bodmas, no more questions hai, this is all I know. :)
Good luck to you and yours!

Sitara, You sound like Mr. Brown's character in the Da Vince Code; of course, neither good nor bad !!!

bodmas,
you are thinking too hard. Let it be.
-- when you look at yourself whose are the eyes you look at yourself with? as this things is going over my head i always think i m looking myself with other's eyes.
i feel complete when they say i am. i feel berated when the say i m useless. is this fair how can it be. i have heard it sometimes ' don't let other make you feel you are inferior' why am i letting this happen all the time.

Yes you are letting it happen because you are observing! Let it be and don't give too much attention to who you are seeing. Just see it for a while without any curious mind.

t is so meaning less success and failure are so futile as words. i have quoted somewhere i don't believe in words. they are so misleading, i m not sure when i will be able to say my life is a super success or die without saying once.

What benefit will you get out of being able to say it? You answer your question yourself. If you do not believe in words, then where is the need to say whether your life was a super success or not.

i m stupid i m dumb i am sure, yet it is so vague. what are we here for what are we looking for bunch of fool like us. bunch of misleaded wanderers, every wall i hit ceases to nothingness or is it the nothingness i m looking for? if it is the nothingness then why all the trouble why all this race. look what have we turned our life into a meaning less race where everyone loses.

You are misinterpreting the idea of nothingness. If anybody can understand this idea of nothingness then that person surely has achieved boddhisattva as some learned man once told me. However the tip of iceberg is not out of reach. Why dont you read Thoughts without a thinker by Mark Epstein.


when u move fast u miss the glory of reaching there. if winning is all you got u in ur head
then life is a misery a total fiasco for you.

let the dance be slow the music won't last don't dance too fast.

one fool lectures another fool and to make him a new kind of fool. it is like a logic question where every logic is wrong yet all think they got it right and impose the so call rightness to other fool. they can bear you to b fool but not a different kind of fool but the fool that is like them. matching the wavelength of foolishness, and we find glory in that. so pathetic, yet an illusion, it is the mirage we are living with, so virtual. we began associating so much with the mirage that we lost the true color. believe me know one knows what the true color is like.

faking the glory, faking the superiroty, yet a abyss inside, every fool knows that, the presence of the abyss yet console his abyss with the foolishness.

look how great is the dumness, no one feels dumbness any more yet another socrates dies unnoticed, a non entity in the domain of fools. four words only he liked to say " we all are fools"

For rest of the thing you have written all I have to say is: unguided philosophizing can be really dangerous. It is a highway parallel and out of the reality. It gives illusions of clearness in perception by doubting or it takes you in circle because the power of doubt is so much when there is no one to answer. As much as it is important to know what you do not know, it is equally important to know what you do know and what you are capable of. So stop thinking and analyzing about all these things. And lets get back to work to get our mind to corroborate with our daily chores.

who cares what other people think of you? only people with low selfesteem need others opinion and agreement. A confident person never needs anyone's approval. No matter how wrong one might be (& who is to judge whom) there will always be someone who will think just like you and agree with you.

e.g, President Bush and Osama Bin Laden(poor choice of characters for example), imagine how many followers they have and I disapprove both of them. does it matter hell know, they both disapprove eachother and still it doesn't matter, so!!! why worry about what people think, smile and be happy, we are not clones, we are humans, we are different, some cry some laugh.

True, confident people never need anyone's opinion, but is it desirable?

The problem with too confident people is they disrespect and lose sight of this thing called doubt. The problem with low self esteem ppl is they are obsessed with doubting. Neither one is desirable. The key is to find the balance.